She’s only gone and bloody done it - my degree is officially complete, and boy does it feel good. For the regular readers of you, you can probably tell that the last semester of university kind of took it out of me. In the midst of writing a dissertation, drowning in course work, as well as trying to make the most of finally having a social life at uni, it’s worked out that this is my first blog post in 3 months. Whoops.
However, this particular blog post is a pretty big milestone – it’s the first one written since I no longer can claim the title of ‘student’ (and can no longer claim student discounts… sad times). And it also marks the beginning of much more regular blog posts now that I’m not suffocating from my university deadlines, so there’s that as well. Yay!
Finishing my degree has made me feel a bit like a deer in headlights. Focussing all my energy into those last few deadlines meant that the end has come around so quickly. I swear it was only January like 2 weeks ago…?
Now that I’m slowly coming out of the hangover-void that has been my post-degree celebrations, I have no idea what to do with myself now that I never have to write an essay or attend a compulsory lecture ever again. I think that’s pretty normal though.
I always thought that by the time I’d finished, I’d have bagged a job that was somewhat related to my Sound Engineering degree. (If you don’t know what it is, Google it so you can see how much of a nerd I actually am). But now that I’m finally at the point that the last 3 years has been leading up to, the thought of commuting to a job with silly hours spent in a dark studio with no windows? I think I’ll put that off for a bit.
So what the hell is next? Well, who knows!? I expected to be a lot less calm than I actually am, but the truth is, I’m so excited.
This blog started as a hobby, and since creating it in 2016, I’ve met some incredible people, reconnected with old friends, and had some unforgettable experiences. It started as a way to channel all the craziness that was going on in my head when I was having a crap time, and now, the things I have achieved with it – brand deals, hugely improved mental health and new-found confidence in myself – have given me a glimpse of a life I never thought existed, let alone one I could have.
One thing I’ve learnt through this blog has been that all those cheesy quotes I've had stuck on my bedroom wall like Thoreau’s “Go confidently in your dreams, live the life you have imagined” actually have some sort of sense in them, as 'basic white girl' as that sounds.
I always thought it was only the lucky ones who were able to be successful in a creative job. When I was younger, I wanted to be a singer or an actress. That was my plan A as a 5 year old.
However, as I got older and my imposter syndrome started to kick in, I didn't know it at the time, I was always resorting to plan B. Or plan C. Or plan D. Although I'd like to think Sound Engineering degree was my plan A, looking back, it wasn't. Yeah it was something I was really passionate about and at the time it felt right, but the more I did it, the more I grew out of love with it. It wasn’t until I stopped ignoring my instincts, addressed my self-doubt demons and worked hard on this blogging malarkey, that I found my real plan A.
I’m not saying that by this time next year I’ll be a full-time blogger and living a life of luxury, because we all know in actuality that life of luxury is just a persona forged by society’s constructs of false reality. (Can you tell I’ve been listening to a lot of Russell Brand recently?)
I'm also not saying that I have any regrets, either. I went from hating university life in first year to not wanting to leave by the end and if it wasn't for my degree, I wouldn't have started this blog or eventually have met some of my best friends.
But, what I AM saying is that, for once in my life, this summer is going to be focussed on all things plan A. Hey, if it doesn’t work out, at least I can say I tried. And what better time than now, when I have no responsibilities?
Keep following the path that gets you excited. For me, it’s taking great photos, going travelling and typing out words in a combination of ways in order to possibly help even just one reader. For you, it might be something completely different, but don’t let the fear of failure stop you.
The reason the chances of something like starting a business are so incredibly slim is because people give up before they've even started. (And I'm ridiculously guilty of this). That’s all there is to it. Not because the market is too saturated. Not because you’re not good enough. Not because you’re not worthy. If you keep showing up and put the work in, you will start to see your goals materialise right in front of you.
I wouldn't say I'm "going confidently in my dreams" per say. I think it's more like "seeing how far I can take this thing whilst trying to not metaphorically shit myself". But at least I know I won't regret trying, and this time I'm not giving up before I've started.
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